AIM chat about my personality and some of my core beliefs - this is only the start - one level of ME. I am one confusing fucker.
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Zoya: hey why DO they call u raven?
Larry: that’s my nickname
Zoya: I know that
Larry: Line Name
Zoya: I’m asking how u got it
Zoya: or why
Larry: I chose it
Zoya: why did u choose raven
Larry: it has a lot of symbolism that I feel describes/represents me
Zoya: such as?
Zoya: darkness?
Larry: mysterious, often misunderstood, solitude, fortitude, Master of ones destiny, silent witness to the world, messenger . . .
Larry: they are unique and different - like me
Larry: it’s my "familiar"
Larry: I share a lot of characteristics with cordaivaphiliacs
Larry: I am my own person
Larry: I like being different but myself
Larry: in general I don’t care what others think - at least I wont let that stop me from acting the way I want
Zoya: I see
Zoya: haha I know trust me
Zoya: hey did u listen to the song yet?!
Larry: I have a certain hatred for the normal and mainstream
Zoya: hatred?
Larry: dislike
Larry: animosity
Zoya: why
Zoya: why does it matter, if that's how people want to be
Larry: hatred is too strong
Zoya: maybe they're just being themselves too
Larry: no not towards people
Zoya: u mean society?
Larry: towards conformity and the boring norm - I like change and variety
Zoya: u know you are just like my cousin...I had like a three hour talk with him about all this stuff last night
Zoya: u would like him a lot
Larry: I need more than what’s on the surface level of things
Larry: that’s what the norm is
Larry: the surface level
Zoya: I think everyone deep down needs that though
Larry: well I'm not satisfied with it
Larry: some people are
Larry: there is so much more why would I want just that
Zoya: u shouldn't want just that
Zoya: no one should
Larry: exactly
Larry: some people do though
Larry: listen to one type of music
Zoya: I think a lot of people pretend to be satisfied with just that cuz that's what society has taught them
Larry: never exploring anything different
Larry: exactly
Zoya: and those who truly are satisfied with that...just don't really understand that there is more to themselves
Larry: that’s where the animosity comes in
Larry: its almost pathetic to me
Zoya: no need for animosity...my cousin said the exact same thing
Zoya: people live their lives in different ways
Larry: but not that hostile
Zoya: you might want to teach them and get frustrated that they don't see beyond it
Zoya: but some people are just happy with the way things are
Larry: I don’t try to teach anything
Zoya: and I think in the end it all comes down to that...its important
Zoya: well want them to realize then I don't know
Larry: I just show them - bring it to there knowledge
Larry: if they aren’t interested that’s their loss
Zoya: and let them do what they want it
Zoya: exactly
Larry: I try to promote awareness
Larry: not change
Zoya: I think that's what everyone should do
Larry: I just want you to at least be aware
Zoya: you in the general sense
Zoya: or you as in me?
Zoya: is there one thing you can do or be doing that just likes totally makes you lose yourself
Larry: no general
Zoya: random question huh?
Larry: rock climbing - some books
Larry: any type of outdoor exertion
Larry: talking about things like this
Zoya: ya
Zoya: I think for me
Zoya: its music
Zoya: and sitting by myself somewhere just beautiful
Zoya: like a lake...or an overlook anything
Zoya: but I love talking
Larry: being in the wilderness is where it’s at for me
Zoya: I love it when it’s just aesthetic to me
Zoya: its calms me
Larry: a quote from candides VOltaire says it all for me
Zoya: when I used to visit I used to go out here all the time to the lake
Zoya: what?
Larry: Voltaire’s Candide that is
Zoya: what's the quote
Larry: ever read the book?
Zoya: oh and ART
Zoya: no sorry
Zoya: art makes me lose myself too
Zoya: which is why I love museums...
Larry: "We Must Cultivate Our Garden"
Larry: anything of beauty - i.e. museums
Zoya: that is a very nice quote
Zoya: that's true
Zoya: I love architecture
Larry: if you don’t read the book it’s hard for you to understand it
Larry: me to
Zoya: isn't the garden your mind?
Zoya: or your soul
Larry: that’s why I’m going Civil Engineering
Zoya: or your life
Larry: if you want to break it down like that it could be
Larry: but in a more basic form
Zoya: or the world
Zoya: wow it could mean a lot actually
Larry: they were actually working in a garden
Larry: it basically means
Larry: happiness comes through the simplicity of things
Zoya: ya it does
Larry: like I told you I am always most happy when I am handling my shit
Larry: that’s what it means
Larry: do what life requires of you not all this other bullshit
Larry: not having a nice house
Larry: or going to snobby parties
Larry: or having power
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